I have now been here longer than I will be here. Do you ever get the feeling that something is being taken away from you with out your permission? I just did. I felt like time was being sucked away from me, into some unknown black hole. It is a strange feeling. Made me feel uneasy. Think is there is nothing I can do to stop it. Time will keep on moving, even if I throw my watch out.

Now you all are probably wanting to hear something exciting about my life here. Lets see, it is still the rainy season here. For the past ten days it has rained all days every day basically. But today the rain has let up and there was even some sun!!! I am now pretty knowledgeable of the Indonesian language. Still lots more to learn but I know lots already.

About three weeks ago my sister, older brother and his girlfriend left this beautiful diverse country after spending two weeks together. That was a very good time.

A couple weeks ago I received a package containing Canadian tattoos just an hour after thinking it would be neat to have them.Thank you!!

I love the friends I have made here and am overwhelmed when I remember I have known them only fiveish months.

I am looking forward to going back home.

My life in Indonesia,

is a blessing
is short
is full of laughter and smiles
creates tension and questions in me.
is so very different than Canada.
I feel...
blessed to have found such a big loving family.
cold after an evening rain.
frustrated with undisciplined children
joy singing in the choir
anger when people exploit me with their camera
full all the time
the tension of being white and not liking all the power that brings
peace watching the sunset
my host sister as she climbs all over me.
divided not knowing who I am.
like a giant amongst friends.
blessed.
discouraged when students dont want to learn.
confused when people talk really fast
at home in this culture
sweat dripping down my back

Time
what is it
does it exsist?
is it a human creation?
will it destroy us
can you run out?

Teach me to love
and with in that love
teach me to accept
accept people
accept circumstances
accept blessings.

That is all for now folks!