There is time to say hello, there is time to say goodbye. Well, I am sad. Today is my last day and I don't know what to do. I am struggling on what I should do. Do I tell, do I tell not. There is time to tell, there is time not to tell. But when is the time, how do I know? Do I think more of how other feel or just myself being afriad of losing... I don't know and I think I am not going to know about that soon? How do I start? How do I dare to do thing that I cannot avoid? Do I wait like a drown man waiting for God to save him? I kinda geuss that it is not going to happen, but why can't I try? hmmm bora bora bora bora bora bora bora... What I am doing now? What I am thinking now? What I am going to do next? What I am going to think next? Does God do the work or I have to do it myself and wait for God's blessing? Do I need to step out or just wait for God to guide my way? Well I am afriad to be the loser, to loss the friendship, to lose face, to face the fact that is going to happen and I don't know what it is, all I can do is to geuss. I am afriad of emberassment, afraid of shame, afriad of fame, afriad of popularity, afraid of being notice.... I would rather be killed than by being ignored....