Here back home. Everyone seems have not changed yet but they did. I thought my worry was serious but it turns out find.

I went shopping today, I bought to much stuff, my money are all gone. Hmm.... Well, I hope I can get a job as soon as I get home then I can have money back. Well, my heart is breaking now. I am so nervious, I don't know what to do. My heart is heavy. I am happy to go home, but I have people here to miss too especially, the one and only. Maybe that is why is heart is breaking...

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What a crazy imagination I have...... What a day dream I have..... Does that only think I can do is to imagine? I can only imagine, but what is happening now? Where are the people? Where am I? What a year is like to you? A spoiled year? A blessing year? A year of learing? A year of not worrying?

I am good alomst in everything but why I am afriad? Why and why and why? Maybe becuase I can't face the people issue.... I can't stand infront people whom I going to meet? What is the meaning of living peacefully? Is that means when other try to hurt you, you run away? Is that means when other mean to hurt you and you stay there so they can hurt you? Is that means when other try to hurt you and you hurt them back becuase you want to get rid of the bad guy? What is the other meaning?

Peace I give unto you, peace which the world can not give... but what is that PEACE?

He who has burdens, come to me and I will give you reat? What are burdens refer to? How do I give it to you? How do you let me rest? What is your light yoke? When it come to that area in my life, I become so weak, I can't even lift my hand up... How can I be strong, How can I be brave? How can I do thing with love?......

There is time to say hello, there is time to say goodbye. Well, I am sad. Today is my last day and I don't know what to do. I am struggling on what I should do. Do I tell, do I tell not. There is time to tell, there is time not to tell. But when is the time, how do I know? Do I think more of how other feel or just myself being afriad of losing... I don't know and I think I am not going to know about that soon? How do I start? How do I dare to do thing that I cannot avoid? Do I wait like a drown man waiting for God to save him? I kinda geuss that it is not going to happen, but why can't I try? hmmm bora bora bora bora bora bora bora... What I am doing now? What I am thinking now? What I am going to do next? What I am going to think next? Does God do the work or I have to do it myself and wait for God's blessing? Do I need to step out or just wait for God to guide my way? Well I am afriad to be the loser, to loss the friendship, to lose face, to face the fact that is going to happen and I don't know what it is, all I can do is to geuss. I am afriad of emberassment, afraid of shame, afriad of fame, afriad of popularity, afraid of being notice.... I would rather be killed than by being ignored....